The Beautiful Pixie

The following is from an absolutely amazing person I met on TikTok she is such a lovely person I just had to have her on my blog. So please take a few minutes to read her story and hopefully you will find her as inspirational as I have…

My name is Pixie-Rae and I live in Devon in the United Kingdom. 

Like most of the word, when the UK went into its first national lockdown, my mental health took a battering. I suffer with anxiety anyway but the unknowingness of what what happening in the world really triggered it to a new level. I had lost my mother to suicide a couple of years before covid so this was all quite a lot for my brain to process. I downloaded TikTok like the rest of the world passing the time making silly videos not really having a care or understanding of how the app works, and I’ve never spoke on camera.

Being a key worker working in a special needs school, I was one of the first to start going back into work after about 6 months of lockdown. It was then that I realised that my speech wasn’t as fluent as it use to be. I would block almost instantly when talking to co workers- it was quite frightening as I didn’t know what was happening to me. It didn’t take long for the blocks to progress into something I already had experienced before (Stammering)

As a young kid I had a stammer, but I honestly remember hardly anything about it. The Stammering and Blocking caused my anxiety to sky rocket, and I also noticed that I was starting to twitch quite a bit. I contacted STAMMA.org who assured me I wasn’t going mad and that I probably had what’s called a “reoccurrence of a childhood stammer” My GP referred me to a speech and language expert, and through regular sessions with her we came up with the theory that the trauma of my mums suicide combined with the pressure of lockdown, just triggered my stammer to return. I found it very difficult to accept, I felt like a complete weirdo, and was terrified that people would think I was putting it on.

Before lockdown I was fluent in speech and now here I am getting stuck on nearly every other word. It battered my confidence and I ended up having a nervous breakdown and being signed of work for 4 months at the beginning of 2021. In this time I went back to scrolling TIkTok and was desperately trying to find if there was anyone else like me I could relate to. I genuinely thought I had gone mad. I found a creator who aslo stammered and was amazed at how openly she spoke about hers.  We spoke on private messages quite a lot and one day I decided to talk on camera for the first time. I didn’t plan what I was going to say, as I wanted my speech to happen naturally, and one thing I had learnt about my stammer, is that if I reversed lines well enough, I don’t get stuck on them.  I opened my mouth and stammer time was born! In this video I asked “what made you smile today?” I had just started to go back to work and so had set myself the personal goal to always find a smile in everyday. I was overwhelmed with the support I recieved. My account grew, and it sounds ridiculous but it helped me to become so more accepting on my stammer. I don’t go to speech and language appointments anymore, I decided that just letting my speech be the way it is is a hell of a lot easier then trying to hide it. My speech therapist did say that just as quickly as my stammer came on it could just as quickly go away. Either way, I’m accepting and happy.I continue to make daily “stammer time” videos  asking people what made them smile and educate in any which way I can about stammering with the little knowledge but first hand experience that I do have.  I’ve also been diagnosed with a movement disorder by the GP- currently waiting assessment from the neurologist to see if there’s anything else to be concerned about. My movements usually happen as away to get out of a stammer or block, but I do have occasional moter tics that happen without speech involved. TikTok has been my saving grace getting me out of a dark place and helping me to spread joy and smiles and be comfortable with my speech as it is.

Please check out Pixie-Rae links




Vineta Lozda

My Friend Vineta’s Come Back

Vineta is one of the loveliest people you would want to meet, she is not only a beautiful young lady she’s intelligent, kind and thoughtful but above all that Vineta is a friend.

Unfortunately, my friend who is a successful model got drawn into the seedy world of drink and drugs, the outcome of this story isn’t a sade one though. Please read her story below, with part two to follow shortly.

From Down To Up

It started off at first by going out for a drink then two it was easy I had a bit of money and people would buy me drinks and before I knew it, I was hooked drink after drink but that was just the start of it then I got sucked into drugs. First, it was only occasionally, then every weekend then weekdays too, I would skip the work, look shit, feel utterly shit, I wouldn’t sleep for days. I stopped eating for days at a time, got myself into debt, I fell way behind with all my bills. I had lost control the small bit of gear turned into a lot of gear I was on a downward spiral of abusing my body with the drink and drugs.

One day as I was looking in the mirror what had happened? where was the strong bubbly, beautiful girl that used to be me? It was then I realised she had gone.
I felt so so sad, I wanted to see her again. I had tried to quit myself before, I would go as far as 4 days and start again, it was so clear to me that If I was really going to do this, I was going to need professional help.
I managed to find the strength to get myself into rehab, I entered a programme called 12 steps. I was aiming for a year to be sober, I had to stop the drinking as that was the trigger to get me onto the drugs, I was really caning the coke by then.

Now it is safe to say that I’m smashing!!! I’m attending meetings I’ve been clean for 60 days with no relapses. I feel good although it’s not easy, I’m here, still sober, and right now that’s all that matters.

By Vineta Lozda

Photo By

Malcolm Clark


Part Two Coming Soon.

I Passed

Well I did it

I can’t believe I actually did it, I took my assessment and actually passed. IM astounded by this fact after all the years of being told I was stupid and would never amount to anything, I have proved that I’m not as stupid as they thought. RelaxI am a Meditation Teacher! Amazing, and I’m not stupid, I’ll admit it wasn’t that easy for me, but the fact of the matter is I did it.

I would like to thank all my friends that supported my on my journey they’re all the nicest people you could imagine and a special lady that gave me encouraging words my loveliest friend Michelle she really did help me through my study. 


Meditation Candles

Now if anyone has any intention of becoming a yoga or meditation teacher I would thoroughly recommend Yoga Dharma 229 Southchurch just give them a call or pop along to see them in person, tell them I sent you. Honestly these are the best authentic teaching school in the whole of Essex, so if you want to take up a new career and want to be taught by experts then you won’t go wrong here.


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More to come…

Cornwall Road Trip

The Road Trip Begins

Day one 10.06.2018

With my hair sorted and showered it was time to get this show on the road.

Although I still had a bit of an upset tummy I wasn’t going to let that put me off, I continued packing up my last few item’s into carrier bags doing my best not to forget anything, I knew somewhere down the line there was going to be a list of thing’s but hey I’m used to it!! And yes there was as soon as I’d left I remember that I had a bag of fresh fruit sitting in the kitchen.

Bags to be sorted!!!

Bags of bits

Well it took me 40 minutes to set right out of Southend onto the main A13 heading towards Dartford crossing then it was a nice steady speed to my first stop at Sevenoaks, from there I went to a small village Four Elms, I stopped here for 10 minutes to stretch my legs from there I travelled on to Washington the South Downs where I decided to stop for the night on a campsite so as I could sort the van out, a lovely little site I used my camping and caravan card which got me a small discount on the regular price.


First Dinner

Shower and Laundry Block


So first place I’m going to visit is Stonehenge and man was I supremely surprised with it, the visitors centre was a hive of information with a feast of facts and figures about Stonehenge the whole history of the place.

The Unmistakable Stonehenge

Hiya Everyone!

After Stonehenge I parked up for the night cooked a lovely dinner for myself had a nice relaxing evening deciding my next destination.


After breakfast I set off for Glastonbury it has been year’s since my last visit but it was just as fantastic!

Found a great parking place (see photo)

Parking place at Glastonbury

Parking place at Glastonbury just through the alley to town centre

Couldn’t get any closer, what a wonderful place to be there was music hippies crystal shops clothing shops it was just fabulous, I think everyone should visit here at least once in their lives!! I must go back soon I love it there such a friendly atmosphere everyone so happy.

Photography by me all copyrighted all at Glastonbury.

From there I headed west on the A39 towards Bridgewater carried on past there ending up at Blue Anchor Bay not far from Minehead.

As I sat there looking across the water I could see in the distance through the haze a glimpse of land, of course it was the coastline of South Wales, Rhoose, Barry and Gileston, then all of a sudden I could hear a familiar sound of #steam, steam from a steam train and there behind me she was in all her glamours glory a lovely old steam engine at Blue Anchor Station I believe it was constructed in the 1870s originally known as Bradley Gate, that’s when I had a sudden change of plan and decided to head for Wales!!.

Road Trip Continues

Along the coast back up to the A39 going North then A38 then M5 past Burnham-on-sea, Weston-super-Mare, Portishead Yes that (Portishead) onto the M49 and finally the M4 and the Seven Bridge into Wales….I was heading towards Brecon Mountain Railway and the Steam Museum at Merthyr Tydfil. By the time I arrived it had already closed for the day, I was hungry and needed to find a place to park up for the night, I ended up at Grawen Caravan and Camping Park.

(CF48 2HS)

Following day I travelled north on the A470 to Beacons Reservoir phor some photos a magnificent reservoir great for my photo session, after spending some time there I travelled north again into the town of Brecon to stock up on supplies Morrisons, the a walk around the town and very nice it was. In the centre of the town just outside St Mary’s church stood a statue of Wellington. The Duke (1769 – 1852) The statue was erected in 1856 by a Brecon resident Evan Thomas as a mark of respect, although Wellington had no connection whatsoever with the town, so I guess Evan just liked him……

St Mary’s church Brecon

After going back to Skylar I noticed a bit yellow Citroen van with a solar panels on its roof a guy was sitting inside typing on his phone as I approached the looked up I gave him a wave went over to have a chat with him and his passenger which was his wife Wendy really sorry if your reading this I’m terrible with names and I can’t remember his…apologies, they had been on the road for 8 months travelling the UK doing boot sales as they went to keep them on the road, and they loved every minute of it, had a long chat it was them that gave me my next destination. Belch Nant yr Arian.

The Following Day.

I set of North on that A470 towards my next point of call a Red Kite Bird Feeding Centre it was situated on a large site of a main building with diner gift shop and wooden outside viewing with seating bird feeders two lakes with I hide and a viewing site on opposite side of lake.

Part two coming soon.

Please leave a comment below and ask any questions.

Thank you.

Little Yellow Bus



Yellow Bus -1


Little Yellow Bus

Just outside Southend is a village named Great Wakering, it’s only small with a population of about 5500, one of those residents is Heather Laskey the owner of “The Little Yellow Bus” a 1970/71 VW Early Bay window Volkswagen Campervan T2. She hire’s this out for weddings, corporate events, proms and other functions. I arranged to go along to see Heather and find out a bit about her lovely VW Campervan.

As I pulled up outside I could see the bus all covered up in her driveway, this was really exciting as I love the VW Campervans. Heather’s had her T2 since 2011, asking Heather what attracted her to getting a VW she told me “she’d always been around campervans”, some close family friends had bought a new campervan in the 70s that had been passed down through the family from generation to generation. Sadly it had problems with water leakages and ended up needing many welding jobs, in the end it had to go. Heather really wanted to get her own Van but didn’t think she would ever be able to afford the one she really wanted, a Split or a Bay (she really was averse to a T25). She made many searches, but alas they all seemed to have issues, batteries going flat far too quickly, problems with rust, damp or just about anything you could think of. Then Heather heard about an early Bay Window in Colchester, (not too far away from Southend), the vender agreed to sell the van for very nice price, well within Heather’s budget.

Heather drove her lovely campervan around for two years, did a few small repair jobs on it but then decided it was time to go for a full restore. She knows many people in the VW world, after asking around, she was given the name of someone, recommended for their restoration work. Heather left them with the van for two years in good faith. They sent her photos of the progress, which all looked good. The van was supposed to be ready for the VolksWorld Show in the September, so in March, before the show, it had only just come out of the paint shop. Unfortunately the paint work had that horrible orange peel look about it, also it was being fitted out before the paint job had been rectified. Well not to put too fine a point on it Heather was not a happy lady, things went from bad to worse. Heather’s had to pay the bill (under protest) to get her precious VW back. She went down to pick it up on a low-loader and bought her home.

 Yellow Bus -11

When she arrived home, whilst trying to unload it, she was unable to get the van into gear. Heather took it straight to a local garage for repairs. Just when you think things can’t get any worse, OMG it went up in flames. I would have been crying by this stage!

Well it ended up being there for a whole year. Realising that the job was a bit too big for the local garage, Heather once again got a low-loader to pick it up and take it over to her Dad’s farm, whilst deciding what her next move should be. Heathers Father had a friend who he thought could rebuild VW engines, that friend was Harry Harpics, one of the best VW mechanic’s and engine restorers in the UK. What a stroke of luck, (“well about time!” I’d say) a straight forward restore had been a nightmare for the poor lady.


Now not the original colour, (orange) that you see everywhere, but yellow (which I think looks fabulous). The Little Yellow Bus took a long, long, time and a many more £££, but the condition it is in today was well worth the cost and the problems that Heather had along the way. The van has been completely refurbished, the original pop top has been taken away, and it now has a rag top instead, as its crowning glory.

So, now I think it looks rather spectacular, it went through some unfortunate issues to get to the stage it’s at today. After all you went through Heather you deserve to have many years of pleasure from your Little Yellow Bus. So good luck! And hopefully I will see you at some shows in the coming years.


Thank you very much Heather Laskey for giving me your time today and telling me about your long journey, best of luck for the future.

Below there are some lovely photos of Heather’s T2

You can follow Heather on Facebook and Instagram.








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New Drone

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Reading up on it now ready for the first flight hopefully it wont be long and we have some good weather so I can get some good videos!!

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