its been 120 days i haven’t had one drop of alcohol, not one cigarette,nor any other drugs .
4 months 😏 I actually cant believe it myslef still the title of my status instead of one number shows 3 now .My days goes quicker now and i count in weeks now and wonder if i will ever stop counting .I am still in treatment ,i am still attending meetings. I am doing good. This months I had to press the “red button “(call someone out of hours for help not to relapse only once ,in my first 30 days i called 8 ,so I’m coping much better and its visible. Amazing things are still happening all the time .I’m still gaining a healthy eight, I’m in the gym 4 to 5 x a week ,i look and feel great. My immune system has not failed once,i haven’t been poorly during all 4 months once .don’t get me wrong I still struggle there and then .I am still paying the debts I made living “that ” life and will pay till Xmas but with no missed payments, and so pis**d off with myslef for it but I’m also saving and financially doing better and better and will eventually get there .
I have a great plan about studying now,i have decided to become a police officer. I have a great plans for life,for the rest of the sober days of my life .
I have realised that i actually have a life beyond my addiction and its not boring being sober .
Many many people have left my life now, but also few just AWESOME has come in .
I dont remeber how it feels to be hungover,i don’t remember the withdrawals and calm downs anymore ,I’m the heltiest I have ever been now .i am completely in love with myslef ,my children,oh and someone else 😉
Thank you to all my true friends Who is trully happy for me ,for all the amazing support I have and for the fate you all have in me .roll on next sober days :)))
Much love ❤
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Unfortunately, my friend who is a successful model got drawn into the seedy world of drink and drugs, the outcome of this story isn’t a sade one though. Please read her story below, with part two to follow shortly.
From Down To Up
It started off at first by going out for a drink then two it was easy I had a bit of money and people would buy me drinks and before I knew it, I was hooked drink after drink but that was just the start of it then I got sucked into drugs. First, it was only occasionally, then every weekend then weekdays too, I would skip the work, look shit, feel utterly shit, I wouldn’t sleep for days. I stopped eating for days at a time, got myself into debt, I fell way behind with all my bills. I had lost control the small bit of gear turned into a lot of gear I was on a downward spiral of abusing my body with the drink and drugs. One day as I was looking in the mirror what had happened? where was the strong bubbly, beautiful girl that used to be me? It was then I realised she had gone. I felt so so sad, I wanted to see her again. I had tried to quit myself before, I would go as far as 4 days and start again, it was so clear to me that If I was really going to do this, I was going to need professional help. I managed to find the strength to get myself into rehab, I entered a programme called 12 steps. I was aiming for a year to be sober, I had to stop the drinking as that was the trigger to get me onto the drugs, I was really caning the coke by then. Now it is safe to say that I’m smashing!!! I’m attending meetings I’ve been clean for 60 days with no relapses. I feel good although it’s not easy, I’m here, still sober, and right now that’s all that matters.
With my hair sorted and showered it was time to get this show on the road.
Although I still had a bit of an upset tummy I wasn’t going to let that put me off, I continued packing up my last few item’s into carrier bags doing my best not to forget anything, I knew somewhere down the line there was going to be a list of thing’s but hey I’m used to it!! And yes there was as soon as I’d left I remember that I had a bag of fresh fruit sitting in the kitchen.
Bags to be sorted!!!
Bags of bits
Well it took me 40 minutes to set right out of Southend onto the main A13 heading towards Dartford crossing then it was a nice steady speed to my first stop at Sevenoaks, from there I went to a small village Four Elms, I stopped here for 10 minutes to stretch my legs from there I travelled on to Washington the South Downs where I decided to stop for the night on a campsite so as I could sort the van out, a lovely little site I used my camping and caravan card which got me a small discount on the regular price.
Shower and Laundry Block
So first place I’m going to visit is Stonehenge and man was I supremely surprised with it, the visitors centre was a hive of information with a feast of facts and figures about Stonehenge the whole history of the place.
After Stonehenge I parked up for the night cooked a lovely dinner for myself had a nice relaxing evening deciding my next destination.
After breakfast I set off for Glastonbury it has been year’s since my last visit but it was just as fantastic!
Found a great parking place (see photo)
Parking place at Glastonbury just through the alley to town centre
Couldn’t get any closer, what a wonderful place to be there was music hippies crystal shops clothing shops it was just fabulous, I think everyone should visit here at least once in their lives!! I must go back soon I love it there such a friendly atmosphere everyone so happy.
Photography by me all copyrighted all at Glastonbury.
From there I headed west on the A39 towards Bridgewater carried on past there ending up at Blue Anchor Bay not far from Minehead.
As I sat there looking across the water I could see in the distance through the haze a glimpse of land, of course it was the coastline of South Wales, Rhoose, Barry and Gileston, then all of a sudden I could hear a familiar sound of #steam, steam from a steam train and there behind me she was in all her glamours glory a lovely old steam engine at Blue Anchor Station I believe it was constructed in the 1870s originally known as Bradley Gate, that’s when I had a sudden change of plan and decided to head for Wales!!.
Along the coast back up to the A39 going North then A38 then M5 past Burnham-on-sea, Weston-super-Mare, Portishead Yes that (Portishead) onto the M49 and finally the M4 and the Seven Bridge into Wales….I was heading towards Brecon Mountain Railway and the Steam Museum at Merthyr Tydfil. By the time I arrived it had already closed for the day, I was hungry and needed to find a place to park up for the night, I ended up at Grawen Caravan and Camping Park.
Following day I travelled north on the A470 to Beacons Reservoir phor some photos a magnificent reservoir great for my photo session, after spending some time there I travelled north again into the town of Brecon to stock up on supplies Morrisons, the a walk around the town and very nice it was. In the centre of the town just outside St Mary’s church stood a statue of Wellington. The Duke (1769 – 1852) The statue was erected in 1856 by a Brecon resident Evan Thomas as a mark of respect, although Wellington had no connection whatsoever with the town, so I guess Evan just liked him……
St Mary’s church Brecon
After going back to Skylar I noticed a bit yellow Citroen van with a solar panels on its roof a guy was sitting inside typing on his phone as I approached the looked up I gave him a wave went over to have a chat with him and his passenger which was his wife Wendy really sorry if your reading this I’m terrible with names and I can’t remember his…apologies, they had been on the road for 8 months travelling the UK doing boot sales as they went to keep them on the road, and they loved every minute of it, had a long chat it was them that gave me my next destination. Belch Nant yr Arian.
The Following Day.
I set of North on that A470 towards my next point of call a Red Kite Bird Feeding Centre it was situated on a large site of a main building with diner gift shop and wooden outside viewing with seating bird feeders two lakes with I hide and a viewing site on opposite side of lake.
Part two coming soon.
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